Putting it off...

I LOVE this picture. This is of my Gramps with Shane, and my Granny with Sadie. It is just so descriptive of them! Gramps being silly and Granny so sweet and cute!Last week, (on our 8th Anniversary, May 19th) my sweet little Granny passed away. I have been wanting to do a post about her, but it is so difficult! So I have been putting it off. Finally, Tricia asked me today if we had gone to the children's museum again! I know, I know! My grandma broke her hip back in February or March and ever since then she has slowly gone down hill. Thankfully, my sweet Aunt Jill and Uncle Jerry have been taking care of her and my Gramps for the past few years! My Aunt Jill is a nurse, so she has been the biggest blessing to them ever! Anyway, we knew it was coming. And actually the day that we went to the children's museum (the picture of the girls sitting outside the restaurant on the bench), I got a call from my Granny so that we could say good bye to each other! I will never forget her sweet words of love, wisdom and encouragement! She is honestly the most Christ-like person I know! I am thankful for her example of love and kindness. She was the perfect combination of sweetness and spunk! (If you look at the top picture of all the different pics, my favorite picture of her is on the bottom right hand corner. It was when she and my Gramps were visiting the Amazon and she is holding a snake that is bigger than she is! Although you can't see it, her expression is too cute! I always thought she was so cool! This was back when I was in Middle School-ish) As a mom, I am more appreciative of her patience and love. I remember she always had such beautiful sculptures , candelabras, vases, dishes, everything around her house. Once all the grandkids were playing and one of us broke the head off of this statue of a little boy. She didn't even get upset! She just told us to be careful! I realize even more so now, how patient and loving she was.
My Mom and Dad married after a divorce from my biological father, when I was 3 and my Granny always talked about how I just ran up to her with a huge smile on my face and gave her a big bear hug and how she felt I instantly loved her! I am sad I will never get to hear her tell that story again. It is kind of like a kid always wanting to hear about the day of their birth...it never gets old!

The morning I got the call from my Dad (who was up there with her), I was then crying after I got off the phone. Sadie was so sweet and asked me what was wrong. So I told her that MY Grandma Vilate died. (So she wouldn't get confused with one of HER Grandma's) She gave me a hug and did a few little whimpers with me. Then she said, "It's okay Mommy, we can see her again after we get baptized!" It was so sweet and really did help me feel better!

Then we went downstairs and went to have cereal and I had to smile again because somehow the fridge door didn't get shut completely tight so the milk was warm with my cereal. Whenever we visited my Granny and Gramps they would go to bed HOURS before we did and would then get UP HOURS before we did. She always had such a beautiful table set for even cereal! I loved it! But since they would get up way before us, the milk was always a little warm from being out for a few hours! So having warm milk with my cereal on the morning she passed just made me smile and miss her! It was perfect! She also always had home made jam and I LOVED it! After making some this year, I think of her every time I have it! (which is a lot!)

So I went up to Idaho last week for a quick trip to go to her funeral. (Thank you Sheila and Lyndsee for taking such good care of our girls!) It was a fast trip, but it was SO NICE! It was great to see family that I haven't seen for so long! So fun to see their adorable kids too! It was fun to look through all of Granny's remembrance books and through old pictures...too funny! Bethany, yes you were ALWAYS cute!

My Grandma's $1000 chair, a medical one that lifts you ALL the way up! We were having fun! Once the LITTLE kids warmed up to it, we could not get them off! My Grandpa was sitting in it and said, "I think I paid $1000 for this chair!" My Aunt Jill told him he did so he said, "I better get some use out of it then!" and then put his nose in the air! Too funny!

My sweet Jill and two of her grandkids! I have to say that Avery is the cutest! Not that they all aren't, but I just wanted to take her home with me! She is the smiley one in front. She would do that and say cheese whenever she saw a camera! Why can't I have a child like that!?!It was a beautiful service! I was lucky to be able to sing at her funeral. She had asked me YEARS ago if I would sing. So I am glad I got to do that! It was so hard to do, but I know she was up there with me, helping me get through it! At the end of the song, there was a little piano part, so as I was standing up there, my sweet Grandpa blew me a kiss, and I blew him one back! I will never forget that! The hardest part about that day, was seeing my Silly Gramps SO emotional! He has always been the joker not one to show his emotions, so seeing them POUR out was very difficult! They had been married for over 63 years!! They had traveled a lot and done amazing things together! I will miss her cards and letters for EVERY occasion! She never failed to show you she was thinking of you! We love you forever Granny!

My Dad pouring sand from the Ventura beaches (where they lived while my Dad was growing up) and sand from St. George (where they lived after they retired) into her grave. It was really sweet.

My Mom kissed her casket and left her lipstick mark on it, so we all had to do the same, so our kisses are with her forever!

Proof that I ENJOYED the 2 pounds I gained! Yummy funeral potatoes and chocolate cake!